Hey guys. I'm sorry it's been awhile, almost 2 months! I haven't been blogging because I've been ashamed of what I haven't been doing. I have a lot of people that have told me that they were motivated by my determination, and I haven't had any determination in two months. It makes me sad and disappointed in myself.
The beginning of the year I was so motivated and worked out all the time, and I loved it. For some reason, I stopped pushing myself. I can't explain it, but I have to get past it. I have to get back to it. I'm so afraid that my goal of running a 5k NEXT month is going to pass me by. Unfortunately, I am going to have to start the Couch to 5k, almost all over again, but I'm going to do it. I have to. I have to change my environment to fit my needs.
Tonight, I caught up on this week's Biggest Loser. Contestants that had been eliminated were given another chance to go back to the campus. I feel like maybe this is my new chance. I feel like I was eliminated early in my own game, but I've got another chance to get back into it. It's a chance I have to take, and I might get eliminated again, but I will not fail, no matter how many chances it takes for me to get it. I still plan on running a marathon in a year. It's a very scary thought though, one year, and I have to start all over again. Ahhh!
Ok. Enough. Tomorrow morning, I'm back to it. I have to be, I don't have a choice. Thanks to everyone who reads my blog, you help motivate me! Please, if you don't mind, continue the encouragement. I really do need it. I know technically, I've got a people doing this with me, but I work-out alone, and sometimes it's difficult, especially because I get bored. Thanks for everything. Good luck in all of your endeavors!
Grace, Peace, and Love,
Jayna
