It's Been Awhile....

Hey guys. Sorry I suck at posting. Long story short, I haven't really done anything since April regarding weight loss or training or anything. I knew this was going to be the most difficult battle I've faced, and it's totally true. Staying motivated is the hardest thing ever. I haven't run a 5k or finished my training program. I haven't eaten right, though I'm getting better. I'm being totally honest here with you, so maybe it'll help me be honest with myself. I make excuses for myself, and I don't get it. I know that I've been sabotaging myself. I wish I knew why. I wish I knew why I am afraid of success. It doesn't make sense, but something deep down inside that I haven't figured out yet is causing me to do this to myself.

In January, and into February, I lost 15 pounds. I haven't gained it back, but I haven't lost anymore. I think I burned myself out too quickly. I just don't get it. It felt so good, when people could tell that I had lost weight and when some of my clothes fit me better or were too big. Whatever my deal is, I don't know. I'm trying to figure it out.

Again, I'm planning on re-dedicating myself to this again. As soon as I have some extra money, I'm registering for the Race for the Cure in Brentwood on October 9th. Maybe registering for an event will help me stick with it this time. I'm setting more goals for myself. Some are short-term, some long-term. I turn 24 at the end of January, that's about 6 months away. They aren't just weight-loss goals either. They're life goals.

- Lose over 50lbs

- Have a plan for moving out

- Start my wedding planning certification class

- Have a savings account, with money in it

There are a few more, but those are the big ones. I really think moving out is really important right now. As much as I love my parents, I feel like living at home has been detrimental to my weight loss.

Alright, guess that's it for now. Hopefully I will continue to blog more often. Again, prayers and encouragement are greatly appreciated. I'm really trying to get my life on track and organized, but it's really difficult doing it on my own.

Grace, Peace, and Love,

Jayna